"I suck."
"I'm such a bad artist." "Why is this so ugly?!" Sound familiar? I’m writing this for myself just as much as I’m writing this for you. Something I still struggle with from time to time is this feeling of not being in the place that I want to be in as an artist, creatively, or just generally not feeling like a good enough artist because I’m not able to do X, Y, Z yet or whatever other reason I come up with. And then I complete a painting after working on it for days and when I decide it’s finished, or simply when I get bored of it, I sometimes have this habit of “throwing in the towel”, thinking of how much I hate the painting I’ve just created and immediately regretting making all of the decisions I made along the way. And I mean, sure, I can go back once the painting is dry (days later...we're talking oils here), and fix any "mistakes" I've made or change this or that, but fact of the matter is- I still have this unwavering feeling of 'this will amount to nothing better' while I work on it. And that's the problem. So I’ve been teaching myself, ever since I got into this whole business of being an artist back in July 2018, how to look at a piece of art that I’m insecure about and find treasure as oppose to feelings of not being good enough. And to be honest, this feeling I get every now and again of not being good enough definitely stems from some past issues in regards to my childhood and all that jazz so I understand where these insecurities derive from, however, that doesn’t stop me from feeling it in regards to my creative process and that’s something I’ve learned how to tackle. That’s what I want to share with you today. How I tackle those insecurities.
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AuthorMy name is Dianna. I'm an indigenous-Puerto Rican artist currently residing in Norway with my husband, trying to make it as an established artist. ArchivesCategories
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